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Prologue. Fuck This Name
02:25
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I stood there watching you, a life in a vulnerable state of mind.
An apathetic telegraph hopelessly looking for the end of the line.
Much like the ones from the old days, you tend to break down.
Existing with only a vague sense of acceptance, never making a sound.
You sat there waiting for the words to explain, to show you the way.
Then you stirred from contemplation and exclaimed, fuck this name.
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2. |
The Librarian
05:12
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You turn for the next returned script of fact or fiction with a sigh
The worn edges of a paperback caught your eye and began to test your patience
You tried to make it right. The words, so delicate so needed
You were in a reckless race from the start, weighing little and having no real worth
With no more personality than novelty your fingers scanned the text
The pages wore from your eye’s fixation as you glared at the unforgivable disrespect
I’ve become exhausted from the burden you place at my feet
Been caught up in your undertow, sweeping under and dragging me
I’ve seen them in so many unworthy hands, your face read as you looked at me
You tried to make it right. The words, so delicate so needed
You were in a reckless race from the start, weighing little and having no real worth
I’ve become exhausted from the burden you place at my feet
I’ve been caught up in your undertow, sweeping under and dragging me
These connections you find with purpose, it still don’t change a single thing
This time I spend with faithless expectancy, waiting for the words to show you the way
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3. |
A Visitor
03:03
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The mysteries and the tricks served up with a devious delight
Are nothing more than confusions for your secrets held tight
Elusive and complicated, it’s not easy to see through your disguise
You would see if you’d ask it of me. How could I put up a fight?
Conducive to stipulation, I'd go the length despite what may arise
If you asked me to you know I'd follow you.
You don't have to do the things you do to get me to go with you.
If you asked me to I would follow you
On the path that leads to the end of countless worlds
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4. |
The Increate
04:41
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I have found no reason not to trust in the words that you say
But what other choice do I have? Words make us all their prey
My soul has been ripped in two because I followed you
Finding the cure to the ache that is my heart is the least you can do
Fearing the worst, I am powerless to circumstance
Life’s become amplified with a reality I don’t understand
Still you wear an attitude untroubled and free, no need for urgency
I can’t believe my eyes. Have they robbed me of my sight?
Are they playing games with my mind? I’ll know in time.
Nothing seems right, it doesn’t feel right
And this day has already been one cruel roll of the dice
If only an explanation would be enough to suffice
Nothing seems right, it doesn’t feel right
No, it doesn’t. And it won’t cause I can’t until I’m whole again
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5. |
His Story Darkles
03:47
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You wake in the night and I’m not there
You try to pick up the pieces they’re scattered everywhere
And you fall to the floor in an act of distress
But I blame you for nothing
It seems life can be a mess
The way it comes together. The way that it spins around.
You check your heart to hear the sound
Overwhelmed by your senses the beating comes quicker now
Is it real, broken or lost, what is it you find?
As you discover yourself alone in the echoes of your mind
The way it comes together. The way that life spins around.
While everyone sleeps, do you stare at the thought of me?
Stuck between confusion and resolve, what do you see?
When the day has gone and there’s no comfort in the night
Laying silently, one breathe away from the destruction of time
The way it comes together. The way the world spins around.
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6. |
Dreamwalker
04:35
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He sees her face and the worried smile she wears
She tries to hide it but to no avail
He knows he’s seen her before. He can't recall where.
She speaks in the hopes that he will come to understand
She pauses and then reaches out to touch him
He braces for the sweet contact and
Catches breath in a body that isn't there
And she learns that you can't touch a dream
She’s a road weary revelation. A vision of grand creation.
He is a feigned ghost of his earthly skin. A reverie of chance.
She's a delusion and yet she's truer than him
Pay attention, she says and as simple as that
He’s floating untethered and free
Pay attention, she cries and she has all that he is
Held tightly with a trillion tiny strings
And then he is pulled back to the waking world
And then she's gone from him, and he from her
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7. |
Break: Her
00:49
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Life in a vulnerable state of mind
An anxious telegraph searching for the end of the line
Left with only a sense of acceptance
Left with the remains of all that has been undone
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8. |
It's So Un, Baby
05:41
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My mind is awash with a disorder
I ponder the irrelevance of the will of time
It replaces my weary contemplation with a cold determination
I am all the power and authority I need to take on this epic feat
The spirits depart, slipping into the shadows
My defenses come undone and I fill up with emotions so crippling and hollow
My heart races faster than my thoughts
This unraveling sequence of events
Gets lost in the confusion of misery that has its hold, so resolved
Uneasy feelings upend my body and panic from the pain sets in
My restless soul passes through the gates of a hell
Riding a wave of continuity that is nothing more than a small bit of the whole
Oh, come now, old friend it’s time for the end
With the power of you and me, it’s so un, baby
Don’t be afraid of the man (who is going to save (with the rusty blade)
That's no way to act my friend. A plan is at hand.
You know you still love me. It’s so un, baby.
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9. |
Danse Magic, Danse
03:51
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I focus on the molecules and speak to them with the power of my will
I flex my mental muscles to achieve the unthinkable, but nothing still
Protection torn away from my soul
Exhausted, an ache fills that hole
I need to figure this out before I’m filled with too much doubt
I try to unlock an understanding that most won’t know in a lifetime
I long for the ability to speak through thought and unravel this paradigm
Then my mind lifted from the cloud
Glowing with a peace throughout
No longer will I close my eyes and be where darkness grows
With every breathe I take this feels more like home, though strange and unknown
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10. |
Bastard Of Shit
03:32
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The voices within the eyes whisper the suggestion of sight
The pressure to speak builds up inside
Born of its profane pride, twisted words come with no surprise
The chatter of teeth begin to vocalize
Words to calm are a little late, ripe with vanity and no shame
Revelations in tongues -all full of lies
Dead inside at every turn, with no hesitation or even concern
The voices in the eyes
The fear feeds on the fear of a faceless shrine
Defined by the boundaries of error in design
Don’t look too close for the fear of your eyes
Don’t think too deep for fear of your mind
Feed me your anger. Feed me your pain.
Feed me until you are no longer sane
I see the fear you hold within your hand
Fingers you wrap tightly to hide your name
Come a little closer so you can see
Come a little closer so you can understand
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11. |
She Comes
03:40
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I’m glad you’re here even though I really don’t know you.
There’s something in your being. I feel you’re someone I can trust.
Your resolve is strong. It’s not an act you put on.
You seem sincere to the troubles that I have been through.
I appreciate you comforting me when you could just be furious.
Everything’s gone wrong and now we have to go on.
You make things clear and give me a better point of view.
In spite of how much it stings, I’ll have to figure out how to adjust.
The worm made us pawns and betrayals push us on.
In a time that’s poisonous
In a time of much distrust
In a time when true friends are a must
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12. |
Break: Him
04:10
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Falling through a hole in the ground
Without any struggle or making a sound
You have me immobilized for now
I’m only waiting for you to let your guard down
Open the door and step right through
Your feeble mind is easy to take and undo
In a short while this day you will rue
Powerless, I won’t have any argument from you
Surveying the backdrop of where I’m at
As for predictability, you’re unsurpassed
Follow me now and we will set a trap
On every door that only cleverness can get past
Our natural forms are no longer present
An ornate demonstration of no comparison
The intricate orders I speak in regimen
Will accomplish brilliantly that which I intend
I believe the time is ripe to put plans into motion
Ahead of schedule and filled with a grand devotion
I ran into some trouble but what’s done is done
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13. |
Early Mourning
04:21
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I don’t know what to say. I don’t know what to do.
It seems like yesterday I last saw you
But it’s been a while and it’s not possible to smile
The pain is more than real and life has lost its appeal
I don’t know who I am. I don’t know who to be.
It feels much like I am stuck in a dream
I sense you are near and wait for you to appear
Akin to a nightmare’s awe, anxious in the wake of loss
I cannot lose you. You were taken away from me.
I cannot undo only endue the nature of agony.
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14. |
The Weeping Song
05:13
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Flashing their teeth and smiling with craze in their eyes
A will with no wonder, a resolve with no question
The cleverness of charms and a madness that lingers
Their nature is to be hungry and convinced
Prisoners of persuasion, living off the plunder
Drawn to the stench driving their discipline
Hunting every inch for a life to desecrate
Acting out the carnal lives they live
Where the solitude ends and the market begins
The noise thunders on, poisonous actors, like flies they swarm
As the serpent eats its tail, a wave of terror fills the air with the devotion of a fly
Digesting the stains as they go under
Acting with no discipline. They want to control.
They want control of me. I must escape this.
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15. |
The New Dirt
03:31
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Fend off those who want into my sleep
Free the land from those who weep
Settle the score with destiny
Armed with aggression and one ambition
Seek the despot
A foreigner to this earth, a lack of information keeps me prisoner
A portrait of rebirth, a reflection of parallels, images in a mirror
In this flight of the imagination as true and real as known reality
Witness the acts of sub-human civility
Press on in the name of one enemy
In this flight of the imagination as true and real as known reality
In this strange land, a common refrain echoes throughout eternity
A new reality, the new dirt
Tell a tale whose time is old, a tale many times told
Take me to the river where, hope was met with despair
Tell a tale for you and me, one that we can feel and see
One that will entertain as we walk on our way
A foreigner to this earth, a lack of information keeps me prisoner
A portrait of rebirth, a reflection of parallels, images in a mirror
In this strange land, a common refrain echoes throughout eternity
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16. |
Tree People
00:53
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Tree people
We are tree people
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17. |
Gohaigah
03:15
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18. |
Come Harvest
04:06
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At once I become thought and now I understand everything
I know you’re okay and that conveys a singular peace to my being
I want to tell you, I want to ask you, but we are one reality and we already know
I know that wherever I am, there you are, until the end of time itself
The moments we are fill the past we lost
Fate unmade us. Life’s plan changed us. It tried to break us, but we can’t be broke
Of all, we are a part
Life has come full circle. Life has come to harvest
Follow the way that permeates all; reach out thought
Be the key that unlocks the infinite
Come harvest reason with will, truth and love
I didn’t start this war, but I’m going to finish it before
I witness anymore atrocities and while I‘m still in one piece
I nearly lost my soul, it was nearly swallowed whole
Battles can’t all be the same, but in the end I came out sane
Give me sight without eyes, sound without vibration
Give me time without light, thought without formation
Give me reason to dispel fate, purpose to replace salvation
Give me will, truth and love - everywhen everywhere and everything
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19. |
Epilogue
04:01
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How could I feel more complete?
What can I say?
Right here is where I want to be
Time moves so fast and yet so slow
There’s always time for love to grow
Here we are; we’ve come so far
Our lives met when we had heavy hearts
You are the upside to bittersweet
It’s hard to believe the dealings we’ve seen
Reach out your hand and you will find mine
You are as sweet as a lullaby
Life has changed in many ways
Awakened me to live for each day
I know it true that love is real
The miles we‘ve traveled for the sake of an ideal
I’ll never take for granted the future’s certainty
You make me want to believe
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